Table of Contents

Introduction

Part One: Living Each Day Fully

• Hope from a Life of Gratitude
• Do Some Things "Just Happen"?
• God's Presence in Spite of the Medical Outcome
• Hope for Forgiveness and Reconciliation
• Choosing My Response
• Fear of Impermanence
• Pain and Suffering
• Giving Up and Letting Go

Part Two: Walking the Valley of the Shadow of Death

• Through the Wilderness
• For Everything a Season
• "Chaplain, I Don't Think I Am Ready . . . ."
• The Eternal Breaks into Every Day
• Between Hope and Reality
• Meaningfulness in the Darkest Shadows

Part Three: The Heart and Soul of Medical Decisions

• Quality Not Quantity
• Shaking Our Fist at God
• The Necessity of Grief
• Making Decisions for Others
• Modern Medicine and "the Enemy"
• Willingness to Yield

Part Four: The Journey to Letting Be

• Putting It Together
• "It Doesn't Matter"
• Idol of Control
• Letting Be Is the Next Step
• May My Suffering Relieve Someone Else's
• True Solace Is Finding None